Yeah so that's why I'm up. You see, there are two types of people that I've encountered in this world. Well 3, and I'd like to get to that in a second! Cause I think thats where I am, yes, SUPER SAIYAN LEVEL 3! Let's call them TYPE A, B, and C.
(*warning, I am basing all of this on personal experiences and everything could be BS, depending on who you are. Both sides can experience one another's side of course, but I mean if it's 80% here, its 20% over there. *)
Type A. Person A is the type who goes through life watching movies, playing video games, enjoying themselves seemingly without a care in the world. They get up for work each day, hustling and bustling doing what they do then come home and enjoy their hobbies, wether that be cosplaying, watching their favorite youtuber or hanging out with friends so care free. If they are artists, they draw, draw, and draw as if the world around them didn't even exists. 34 hours a day and they couldn't care less if their house was one fire.I just need to draw some more (not me) Of course when it comes to personal matters, it's dramatic and its the end of the world for them. It could be their next exam paper or missing sock, that they are stressing about, it's the only thing that matters at that moment. Nothing else mattered except what was in front of them. I remember being like this at a very young age. Come to think of it, Type A has a very childlike personality. Most of us, as children, didn't have a care in the world! We ate, slept, pooped, watched dbz/pokemon, and did all over again the next day. Not much to worry about as kids cuz Bills were paid for, food was taken care of, and if you were like me, you DREW! These people, seem to not give a DAM about what goes on around the world. Watchign their tv shows or Collecting their favorite fan art action figurines! WhAT about All the politics and catastrophes going on around the world? These aren't all kids either! Meaning there are adults who still live this way. I mean they go through life just living life! HOW DARE THEY!? I mean what about all the poor people, all the destruction and chaos And diseases? You never know when you might not wake up the next day! I'll talk to some and they'll be oblivious to even major world events. I mean, were they living in a hole? This is where I come in. Because of all the problems going on, i'm always thankful for every day I have to live. I'm the guy who always say to people, and especially to myself, "Be thankful for life. Take a biggo breath of fresh air and stop to smell the roses!" WHY DONT YOU STOP TO SMELL THE ROSES! SweetYY, WHY ARN"T YOU SMELLING THEM DAM ROSES??!! DO YOU NOT KNOW I COULD DIE IN THE NEXT 10 MINUTES? (making my girlfriend feel guilty) This is where TYPE B comes in.
Type B. This person (although I haven't met many others like this, I'm sure they are there) Goes through life thinking deeply about the thoughts feelings and problems around the world. Constantly analyzing EVERYTHING! They can't enjoy A movie because they are too busy pointing out all the technical things in the movie, good or bad. When it comes to the world, they post a lot of world problems, AS WELL AS innovations! But mostly Problems, and stories that they feel may help the solution. But because not the majority of people care for it, they can feel quite a lone. It's as if no one cares! Others care more about the 3rd trailer release to Star Wars, Or puppies. I mean who doesn't like puppies (I DO!) They can't just walk through a park, beach, or drive on the freeway, without pointing out to person next to them how miraculous everything looks. LOOK AT THEM CLOUDS! DO YOU SEE THAT MOUNTAIN! O MAN A ROCK! WOW! Now THATS a ROCK! I mean they notice everything. In a way, it's child like too! Always pointing things out for everyone to see. WHY DON'T PEOPLE SEE? Are they ZOMBIES? PAY ATTENTION YOU GUYS! And when it comes to relationships, they are very sentimental. Very just over the top at times. Let's take a PICTURE. Let's film a video! Gotta cherish the moment! Living life as if they were going to die the next day!
This is me, Type B. I've calmed down on pointing things out. I had to find a balance, cause I understand it can be annoying. For the most part, when it comes to world issues, I pick and choose what to share, everything else I keep to myself. I've learned to really just say, whatevs! I got my own things to worry about, and so DO EVERYONE ELSE! But an aspect I can't let go is how I cherish each and every day and moment. *warning bout to get sappy* Every weekend I have my girlfriend come over and spend the night at my place. As far as I can remember, I can spend 2 to even 3 hours just stroking her hair, or face till I myself falls asleep. After about 8 years of this, she sleeps through it NO PROBLEM! Like a rock. If I fall asleep and wake up at some time in the night, I have to peck her on the fore head a couple of times, and stroke hair and all that other mushy stuff before falling back to sleep. But I have NOOOO problem doing this. I mean for one it feels nice to me, but mostly it's cause i'm doing my best to cherish the moment. Cause I think to myself, If I die, or she dies, I can say, I've loved her as much as I could. I'm sure most happy couples do this. But I'm not sure to the this extent. I remember the first 2 years we were together, I didn't miss more then 2 nights of singing to her. I MEAN I dont think i missed ANY! But to be sure, i'll say 2. I'll sing like 4 or 5 songs EVERY, SINGLE, NIGHT!!! This isn't just with her either! JET YOU'RE ARE CHEATER?! No NO! I don't mean like that, I mean, when I'm having a happy moment with a friend, or family, I will sometimes go blank and try and breath in the moment. If I'm out I'll spend time "BREATHING IN" the moment. TRYING SO HARD TO HOLD ON TO THE FEELING! It's come to the point where I think maybe, it's TOO MUCH! WHA??? CHERISH TOO MUCH???? Sure it's great to cherish the moment, but there comes a time, when it's tooOOo MUCH! And I think that's what happened this morning.
This morning I felt a deep sorrow.... Yeah don't worry it's not bad. It happens sometimes when I wake up too early. I think it has something to do with the chemicals in the head, when its super early, and doesnt have all the juices flowing yet. I DONT KNOW OKAY? But i felt quite depressed. It's hard to pinpoint the problem but I mean I was soOOooOo freaken sad. Every type of sad thought would run through my head. Even trying to smile didn't help. I was on the verge of tears. O I remember! I started thinking about the year, and how fast time flew. How fleeting life is. I know many of you have felt this way, I'm sure everyone does. I was like "you mean, one day my GF will BE GONE? And I won't have this moment with her??? IT's okay! LET ME JUST INHALE HER SCALP!!!" (Nearly woke her ass up AHAHA) OR "MOMMA GONNA DIE SOMEDAY? DONT WORRY, I'LL TAKE HER OUT TO EAT ASAP! We'LL GO SHOPPING AND EAT AND IT'LL BE GREAT!" Or "I CAN DIE TOMMOROW?? Crap, but that'll be devastating to mom..."(Not so devastating to GF, JK !!IM JOKING! XP) That one reaaAAAaaLLy made me sad. I havn't been afraid of dying since a LOOONG time. What makes me sad is what would people who care about me feel. I'll be fine dead, but what about mom? So I said, I KNOW WHAT! I'll WRITE A GOOD BYE LETTER TO EVERYONE! And I'll put it in an easy place to find like my shoe box encase I Die! This way if I go, I'll have a way to say good bye. Wow... I mean what am I Saying?? This is REALLY DEPRESSING JEt! A GOOD BYE LETTER???? What the hell is going on here? DON"T YOU DARE WRITE THAT LETTER! Yeah happy hormones kick in a second don't worry. But this is what I mean, over thinking everything. Thinking too much can get you DEADED! Hahaha. So I began to think. Why am I saying all of this? Well I think it stemmed from me cherishing the moment TOO HARD! Not being more like TYPE A! Just enjoy THE MOMENT AND DON"T THINK TOO MUCH! ENJOY IT! Stop second thinking everything! It's as if everyone is watching the movie of life, and I'm the only one NOT watching the movie! I'm busy analyzing. And even WORSE, i watch the people sitting next to me. I watch the expression on everyone's faces in theater. I PEOPLE WATCH! Literally as well as metaphorically! Think about that. I literally do this in the movie! Whille people are watching the movie, my mind flutters away from time to time to everything else but the movie. But I do it in real LIFE too! I can't just go through life beating my drum and following the crowd. I'm the one who is constantly off beat cause I'm looking everywhere else except the parade. THERES A PARADE GOING ON AND I'M LOOKING AT THE TINSLE ON MY FIGURE, OR YOUR FORE HEAD! I think i'm trying to cherish the moment, but by doing this I'm not in the MOMENT! Being in the moment means ENJOYING THE PARADE OR MOVIE ! And sometimes, I think It's OKAY TO NOT GIVE A SHIT TO BE IN THE MOMEN! YES! THIS IS IT! This is what made me have that "AH HAH!" moment. Cause i thought "what happens when the movie ends? WHAT HAPPENS WHEN PARADE IS OVER?? What were yOU doing that whole time?" I was looking at the tinsel on ground.
While everyone is out enjoying the basball game, or video game, you were caught up with ALL the things around it. While everyone was laughing at the dinner, you were busy "trying to cherish that fleeting moment" I had to remind myself. Moments are fleeting. And that's what makes them special. People don't live forever, and that is what makes life so special!!! BINGO! I've heard this before many times, and I've preached it too, but I had to do some reallllll thinking to truly appreciate this. Fleeting moments are special because they ARE FLEETING! It's not good to take things for granted of course, but its also not too good if you can't JUST ENJOY YOUR BOWL OF NOODLES WITHOUT TAKING MENTAL PICTURE OF EVERYTHING AROUND YOU! Cause while I was busy watching the people around me, I MISSED THE WHOLE DAM THING. This wonderful movie we call life. I remember a guru once stated, "Life is a play, and we are all merely actors" (There is spiritual meaning behind but maybe I'll get into that another time.) SO PLAY THE ROLE YOU WERE GIVEN! Sometimes it's okay to play these dramatic parts of life. And worry about that exam paper like theres no tommorow! Yeah you'll get over it, but you are dealing with it now, SO DEAL WITH IT However yuo feel, even it means crying in the corner until the due date! Or have your arguements with people about your favorite cartoon as if it's the most matter of fact thing. Wether you get over it or not is besides the point, RIGHT NOW WHAT MATTERS IS GOKU BEATS SUPER MAN EVERWAY YOU PUT IT DAMMIT! To forget EVERYTHING ELSE and be completely engrossed/lost in the moments we live. To just be okay with living. To be caught up in the fleeting problems we have. "Play the roles of the play" Get caught up in the guilty pleasures like video games, movies, action figures, or whatever you are into. Say, FUCK YOU WORLD! I'm gonna worry about me and forget everything else existed! Obviously this comes with keeping in the back of you mind that I'm thankful for every moment I have to live and for all the wonderful people I know. But while I cosplay as batman, I'm batman, and that's what im about! If you are one who get's lost, and is a hermit and ONLY lives like an OTAKU and NEVER stops to take a deep breath and be thankful to breath another breath of precious air, I highly suggest you do. I mean THINK ABOUT IT! THIS AIR IS FREE! Just breath, theres plenty to go around. Wow what an amazing feeling. Maybe you should stop and smell the roses. You see that's an example of the things I would tell myself all the time!(I know I'm such a hippy) But I'm at the point where Im like, DAMMIT JET THEYRE BREATHING ALREADY!! WHERE ARE THE FUCKEN ROSES, IF THATLL SHUT YOU UP!!! So if you are like me, maybe it's time to say, YOU SMELlED ENOUGH ROSES! THE FLORIST WANTS YOU OUT OF THE GARDEN! Basically point is, What is the point of life, if you arn't living it. Don't live life as if you were gonna die every. Because how are you gonna get through the day if you are busy smelling every dam FLOWER!? DAM IM CRAZY!!
Balance is good. TYPE C is a balance of both. Being able to enjoy life while acknowledging and cherishing the moments without getting too lost in the act of cherishing. Being able to say you know what? It's okay to be selfish and indulge. BUT NOT TOO SELFISH OF COURSE. You can have your cake and eat it too. Watch a movie and get lost in it! I might glance at the people around me, but why did I come to see this movie we call life. To experience it! That's one thing I ask myself, if your dying self could talk to you today what would he say about this matter/ this whole ordeal. And I'm pretty sure he'd say.
"LIVE IT YOU IDIOT! Cause while you were busy trying to inhale the moments you were living, everyone else was busy LIVING IT!"
I think that pretty much summed up everything I was thinking. Writing is such a pain cause I have to make sure it all makes sense. HAHAH, THANKS EVERYONE WHO STUCK AROUND TILL THE END! LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! Talk to you later, and have a wonderful day!
Consult your doctor today if you have suffer mild or sever SRD(Smell Roses Disorder) Today, and see if Type C is right for you.